Meu amado filho,
Há anos sonho contigo, com o teu rostinho, com o teu cheirinho. Mas há anos tb vinhamos adiando a sua vinda. Talvez por puro egoísmo (afinal, quem ficará contigo para viajarmos e crescermos na nossa profissão?); talvez por medo (será que temos condições de ter um filho??!!); talvez por insegurança (será que a gente é capaz de criar um crianca?).
No início, qdo soube que tu estavas aqui dentro de mim, senti uma forma estranha e complexa de amor. Um mistura de alegria e tristeza, chorava e ria! Depois vieram os enjôos, as mudanças de humor, e um cansaço incontrolável, que não me permitiam manter o ritmo de trabalho a que estava acostumada. Cheguei até a te rejeitar, amado filho (como pude?). Depois, passados os enjôos, entrei numa fase de aos poucos perceber que tu realmente existias, e que as pessoas olhavam para mim de uma forma diferente, de uma forma sublime, como se eu fosse a prova viva do milagre da vida.
Agora, no finalzinho, a medida que te sinto mexer dentro do meu ventre, sinto algo muito diferente… Agora realmente nada me importa, a não ser a hora de te ter em meus braços, de sentir teu cheiro, de conhecer teu rostinho que há tanto tempo sonho em ver… É um amor, filho, difícil de explicar, de expressar… É maior que eu, É maior que meu coração. É uma vontade enorme de te proteger de tudo, de todos… É a certeza que quero dar o melhor de mim para ti… É a certeza que quero estar junto a cada conquista tua, meu amado filho… a cada dentinho que nascer… a cada partezinha do teu corpo que tu vais aprender a controlar. É amor, meu amado filho, que transborda… que me faz rir… que me faz chorar. É um amor IMENSO, INCONDICIONAL. Estou aqui, meu anjo, te esperando, com o coração aberto, cheio de amor para te oferecer.
Sim, para mim a vida agora é vc! A vida aos poucos está tomando um sentido diferente… É divino, meu filho… É inexplicavel… Só sei que me sinto abençoada por Deus por ter a graça de poder te ver crescer dentro do meu ventre, e de encher meu coração de uma paz que eh só tua, só nossa.
Te amo muito e incondicionalmente,
Tua mainha!
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My beloved son,
For years I dream of you, of your little face, of your smell. But for years we delayed your arrival. Perhaps out of pure selfishness (after all, who will be with you while we travel and grow in our profession?); perhaps for fear (can we have a child??!!); perhaps due to insecurity (can we raise a child??!!) .
At first, when I learned you were here inside me, I felt a strange, complex form of love. A mixture of joy and sorrow, I cried and laughed! Then came the “morning” sickness, mood swings, uncontrollable fatigue, that did not allow me to keep the work pace I was used. I even rejected you, beloved son (how could I?). Then once all of that settled, I entered a phase of gradually realizing that you really existed, and that people saw me differently, in a sublime way, as if I'm living proof of the miracle of life.
Now, at the very end, as I feel you move inside my belly, I feel something very different now ... nothing really matters to me… I only want to have you in my arms, to smell you, to see your little face that I have dreamed of for so long now. It is a love, my beloved son, difficult to explain, to express ... It's bigger than me, it is greater than my heart. It is an urge to protect you, to give you my best… It is the desire to be beside you in every milestone you achieve… your first smile, your first tooth, the first movement in body you will learn to control. It's love, my beloved son, overflowing ... that makes me laugh ... makes me cry. It is a HUGE love, UNCONDITIONAL. I am here, my angel, waiting with an open heart full of love to offer you.
Yes, life for me now is you! Life is slowly taking a different direction ... It's divine, my son ... It's unexplainable ... I just know that I am blessed by God for the grace to see you growing inside my belly, fulfilling my heart with a peace that only belong to you, to us.
Love you much and unconditionally,
Mommy
For years I dream of you, of your little face, of your smell. But for years we delayed your arrival. Perhaps out of pure selfishness (after all, who will be with you while we travel and grow in our profession?); perhaps for fear (can we have a child??!!); perhaps due to insecurity (can we raise a child??!!) .
At first, when I learned you were here inside me, I felt a strange, complex form of love. A mixture of joy and sorrow, I cried and laughed! Then came the “morning” sickness, mood swings, uncontrollable fatigue, that did not allow me to keep the work pace I was used. I even rejected you, beloved son (how could I?). Then once all of that settled, I entered a phase of gradually realizing that you really existed, and that people saw me differently, in a sublime way, as if I'm living proof of the miracle of life.
Now, at the very end, as I feel you move inside my belly, I feel something very different now ... nothing really matters to me… I only want to have you in my arms, to smell you, to see your little face that I have dreamed of for so long now. It is a love, my beloved son, difficult to explain, to express ... It's bigger than me, it is greater than my heart. It is an urge to protect you, to give you my best… It is the desire to be beside you in every milestone you achieve… your first smile, your first tooth, the first movement in body you will learn to control. It's love, my beloved son, overflowing ... that makes me laugh ... makes me cry. It is a HUGE love, UNCONDITIONAL. I am here, my angel, waiting with an open heart full of love to offer you.
Yes, life for me now is you! Life is slowly taking a different direction ... It's divine, my son ... It's unexplainable ... I just know that I am blessed by God for the grace to see you growing inside my belly, fulfilling my heart with a peace that only belong to you, to us.
Love you much and unconditionally,
Mommy
E a medida que escfrevia essa carta, filho, meus olhos se enchiam de lagrimas... Te amo, meu amor!
ReplyDeleteE...e quando achamos que esse amor ja e grande demais...ele cresce sem medida! Lindas palavras mainha! Beijos!
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